My head hurts. To define its quality, it's throbbing. Harsh pain, if i must say. I don't want to feel this pain. Ever.
I am all confused with what happened. A sudden shift of affection has made me in crisis. I thought it was okay to get used to the longing, the attachment and the like. I really haven't learned yet. I think it's how life works. You need to learn on your own, and though people may make you believe that you don't deserve to be alone, don't totally give in. Just savor the moment, but never ever, dream of making it last.
I still believe in forever. But, I guess it exists once in a blue moon. I still don't lose hope. Someday, i know i can understand where "FOREVER" exists. I still hold on to that faith. Maybe, forever is about living this life to the fullest. Or, forever maybe about holding on to your belief and that no one could break it.
:) Again, I have learned another lesson. And, that is to be strong FIRST in being alone. :) I can do it. If other people can, why can't I? I am not different from them, I am also human :) I can do this. And if ever i find problem so big, so what?? I have a bigger God :)
hoping,
Andrea
